Entries for June, 2005

June 1st, 2005

week of good things

yesterday i said this to my youth pastor "ain't this a week of many good things? so many good things are happening.."

for a start.. i came back from saigon, knowing that my cellgroup mate has juz got into relationship with a very good boy (or man?) in our church.. i remember my youth pastor's wife once told me that this cellgroup mate of mine deserves to get a special one to be her boyfriend.. well... i guez he is quite a special one... i do admire his characters..

then today, another mate of mine (a boy), juz had his registration of marriage done.. he is now legally, a husband.. ain't that awesome.. born few months earlier than me and he is a husband now.. his wife is well.. she got this very interesting character, a great woman.. they are juz made for each other..

me?
if discovering that for all these years,
i'm still so much into the same person..
despite still unable to find the exact reasons
despite playin 'i've moved on' game so expertly at times
is a good thing then..
it's really a damn good week...

this is a song i'm listening to at da moment...
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Masih (Sahabatku Kekasihku) - Ada Band

Rasa cinta yang dulu tlah hilang
Kini berseri kembali
Tlah kau coba lupakan dirinya
Hapus cerita lalu

Dan lihatlah
Dirimu bagai bunga di musim semi
Yang tersenyum menatap indahnya dunia
Yang seiring menyambut
Jawaban segala gundahmu

Reff Verse I :
Walau badai menghadang
Ingatlah ku kan selalu setia menjagamu
Berdua kita lewati jalan yang berliku tajam

Setiap waktu wajahmu yang lugu
Selalu bayangi langkahku
Telah lama kunanti dirimu
Tempat ku kan berlabuh
Cahaya hatiku
Yakinlah kekal abadi selamanya
Seperti bintang yang sinarnya terangi seluruh
ruang di jiwa
Membawa kedamaian

Reff Verse II :
Walau badai menghadang
Ingatlah ku kan selalu setia menjagamu
Berdua kita lewati jalan yang berliku tajam
Resah yang kau rasakan
Kan jadi bagian hidupku bersamamu
Letakkanlah segala lara di pundakku ini

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June 3rd, 2005

ah.. so it's my 'wife''s song

well..  i always use the term "my wife" when i joke wif elsa bout jolin, siti nur haliza, chae rim, or fann wong. the truth is they r few asian celebs that i really like.  but to look back, i'm actually qute faithful coz the one celeb i really like a lott is noriko sakai, all the time..
sigh.. to think that she was not even an A-list celeb in Japan in her prime.. 
so.. when i was back in indon for 2 weeks, i happened to listen to a very nice song in radio.. felt familiar but then i didn't know who was the singer.. i thot it was FIR (duh.. don't even recognize my wife's voice).. then when i wanted to buy a mini bday card for elsa's bday in a gift store (erm.. plaza sing 3rd level, attended by a very sweet n kawaii shop attendant), again this song was playin n all the more i liked the song...

so this is the song..... (which happen to be inside my comp lol)

dao dai

by: cai yi lin, jolin


wo shou gou le deng dai
ni suo wei de an pai
shuo de wei lai dao di duo jiu cai lai
zong shi yao lai bu ji
cai zhi dao wo ke ai
wo xiang yi lai er ni que dou bu zai

ying gai kai xin de di dai
ni gei de quan shi kong bai
yi ge ren jia ri fa dai
zhao bu dao ren pei wo kan hai
wo zai xing fu de men wai
que yi zhi dou jin bu lai
ni lei ji gei de shang hai
wo shi zhen de hen nan shi huai

zhong yu kan kai ai hui bu lai
er ni zong shi tai wan ming bai
zui hou cai ba hua shuo kai
ku zhe qiu wo liu xia lai
zhong yu kan kai ai hui bu lai
wo men mian qian tai duo zu ai
ni de shou que fang bu kai
ning yuan mei chu xi qiu wo bie li kai

ni zong shi yao wo guai
man man ji hua jiang lai
wo de yan lei que yi zhi diao xia lai
guo qu zen me jiao dai
ni gai gei de xin lai
bei ni qin shou huan huan tui ru xuan ya

cong wo lian shang de cang bai
kan dao ji yi man xia lai
guo qu tian mi zai dao dai
zhi shi gan jue yi jing bu zai
er wo dui ni de qi dai
bei ni yi ci ci shuai huai
yi jing sui cheng tai duo kuai
yao zen me pin cou gen chong lai

zhong yu kan kai ai hui bu lai
er ni zong shi tai wan ming bai
zui hou cai ba hua shuo kai
ku zhe qiu wo liu xia lai
zhong yu kan kai ai hui bu lai
wo men mian qian tai duo zu ai
ni de shou que fang bu kai
ning yuan mei chu xi qiu wo bie li kai

 

Currently listening to: jolin - dao dai
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June 12th, 2005

impartial humility

so a fren of mine, looking at a newsletter i editored for my church.. not really knowing that i got sumting to do with the newsletter.. or maybe he knows, which doesn't realy matter.. sayin with 'heck i couldn't be bothered' attitude 'oh.. i never read this newsletter'..

n my frens who were around.. jokingly told me 'hey.. he is ur cell group mate.. how come he say like that?'

to start with.. i'm a melancholic.. but then.. this isn't the first time i hear this kinda thing being mentioned bout the newsletter... still.. it feels a bit sad when someone say sumting bout what u've been working on every week almost unfailingly for almost 2 years..

but then i learn.. this is where u put ur humility into practice..
n  furthermore.. it gotta be impartial humility, coz the person sayin this isn't exactly the person u consider to be so good n so wise that he wouldn't learn a tiny bit from reading the newsletter...
u got to tell yourself 'hey.. maybe he did know more than whatever you could prepare in the newsletter'...

n in a more selfish way.. u can tell yourself 'hey.. at least now you know you should never undermine someone else's hardwork.. no matter how 'wise' or 'mature' you assume yourself to be'

i thank God, i learn that i still have a long way to go.. before i can say that i've learned to be humble.. to live as His servant with no need for recognition..
n i learn to understand what Paul meant when he said 'love doesn't boast'

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June 20th, 2005

last week before im back to work

finally.. got a job... n without a referral.. not that i try to act tough n not accepting any help from my frens who offer me jobs.. jzu that.. i really really want to know how it feels to really get a job on my own.. so that when i got that job.. its really satisfying n i can say to God 'hey.. our partnership works wonder.. thx God'.. it's really between me n God, n the partnership is juz sweet...

it feels strange that i'm back in IT line.. i still want to work in KUMON.. but somehow.. juz like relationship.. i kinda feel that i won't get KUMON n i will end up getting that 1st job I was offered.. a product developer job.. juz a gut feeling...

n another thing iz... hm.. i did plan to do something once i got a job... n.. now that i got the job.. i don't know how to get this started.. perfect timing.. God's timing... hmm.. this is getting my heart thumping n i'm a happy lad.. always savour the happy moment n leave tomorrow to God.. didn't i say that 2005 gonna be exciting?

 

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