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Entries for August, 2005

August 7th, 2005

renungan malam minggu

yeah.. i feel like speaking my so-called mother tongue.. its saturday nite n i don't feel like sleeping so i'm typing..

kadang gua mikir, waktu temen gua bilank.. 'lu itu selalu ngerasa lu not gud enuf n let other do it.. do u know lu uda missed out on lots of things'
honestly 'gua ga tau.. apa yg gua uda missed out on'

coba kita liat.. kalo omong karir.. yah mgkn bener seh.. mgkn kalo gua lebih agresif.. bisa dpt kerjaan yg lbh bagus.. lbh pede dsb... lah tapi uda kirim resume ke company2 gede ko.. ga dipanggil leh.. emank pengalaman ga impresip.. wat to do..

lalu.. skolah... dang.. itu uda basi kali.. itu seh intinya gua males pas kuliah.. jd ga bisa ambil beasiwa buat s2, s3 dst deh.. tp gpp ko..

pelayanan deh.. iyahh. mgkn kalo gua pede gua uda jd worship leader n ga tetep jd backvocal.. tapi gua senenk ko jd backvocal.. n lagian gua ga suka wkt gua ngelayani ada mata2 yg ngenilai segala suara lah, skill lah, fales ga lah.. blah.. sekalian aja gua jd singer cafe.. so mending jd backvocal yg ga disorot n bisa ngelayani dgn bae... u see.. asal Babeh diatas senenk.. gua senenk..
mgkn atu hari.. kalo gua bs ngelead dgn skill yg ga ngegelitik telinga2 para ahli disekeliling then gua consider upgrade d.. skrg ngeles dulu ^^

nah trus ini dia... pasangann!!! okay mari kita liat.. pertama kali gua miss out wkt smp 1 ato 2.. masa2 lugu.. gua isenk tanya si x, 'kalo jd ce gua lu keberatan ga' trus dia jawab 'ngga'...
trus uda gua ga lanjutin.. soale emank ga siap jadian.. n ga nyadar itu namanya nembak.. omg... kasian juga dia..

hmm kalo ga korek2 sejarah gua ga inget ttg kejadian smp 1 itu.. ingetnya kejadian 3 taon kemudian.. yg itu seh ditolak...lol... pdhl itu pertama kali serius.. maseh fresh dr nonton 'u had me at hello' plus 'u complete me' nya tom cruise.. abis itu nembak n stlh 3 hari dtg d surat maut, lengkap dgn segala alasan manis.. intinya yah 'ngga'.. hehe..
tapi kita temen bae bgt.. n alwayz be.. n gua nyadar emank bahkan waktu itupun gua ga siap.. so... its for the best yo...

lalu.. yah.. abis itu.. ce yg ga pernah bisa gua lupain.. 'cinta' pada sentuhan pertama... kita orientasi bareng di uph.. spt biasa gua tau lah kalo ada ce cakep disekitar.. tp ga terlalu gmn.. ampe kita ada game adu cepet nyari buku di library..
n grup gua ama grup dia dicombine.. gua n dia jd wakil grup...
so.. sementara gua lg bengong stlh dikasi tau buku yg dicari.. dia lgsg narik tangan gua n lari ke lantai 2 library nyari buku.. gila.. itu pegangan tangan pertama gua!!! n ce nya yg inisiatip.. emank agak2 hopeless d ....
lantas ya sejak itu.. since grup gua duduk di blkg grup dia.. eksistensi dia jd begitu nyata di dpn gua n seakan apa yg terjadi di dpn sana uda ga gitu narik perhatian.. tiap liat ke dpn, seakan dia jd berkali2 ke zoom.. so much that gua satu hari gatel n decide buat gambar dia yg lagi duduk dr belakang.. kebetulan dia duduk tepat di baris dpn gua..

itu thu pertama kali gua gambar ce yg nyata n kasi ke ce nya.. gua kasi pas hari trakhir orientasi kynya... uda jelas gua ga jago gambar realisme.. tapi ya tapi.. yg itu mirip loh haha.. n senenk banget pas abis itu.. yah ada telpon2an n dia cerita hari itu dia pulank n pas makan malem dia kasi liat ke parentnya.. yg bilank kalo itu gambar mirip dia..
yah senenk aja..
tapi mgkn salah gua.. coz gua gambar dia dr blkg.. coz gua bukan yg inisiatip hold her hand wkt di library.. n gua jd playing catching up and gua gagal..
kalo dipikir2 lagi.. gua yg ga ambisius ini emank ga cocok buat dia..
tapi gua msh inget kok janji gua ama dia.. kalo satu hari gua ngarang komik.. nama dia pasti ada disitu..
n gua rasa.. kalo satu hari gua punya anak ce, gua bakal ngasi nama dia ke anak itu..

jadi kalo dipikir2, masalahnya itu gua ga ambisius.. tau ko itu salah n gua ga niat ngasi alasan.. tapi kalo pengen tau alasan gua.. ya gua males aja liat org berlomba2, sikut sana sini, pake segala cara yg gua anggep basi, toh dunia ini maseh gede gini...

tapi kalo demi orang2 yg penting buat gua, gua harus ambisius, gua pertimbangin d..

uda d.. ceritanya lanjut besok.. kan cerita ttg riwayat cinta itu panjang..

Currently listening to: reza - satu yang tak bisa lepas

Posted by phoenix_chix at 02:37 AM | Add a Comment

and she said...

ah ya.. lupa.. ce yg gua kenal di uph itu.. pernah omong something yg gua ga akan lupa ampe kapan pun.. biarpun emank itu kebeneran yg orang2 mungkin jg uda tau..

so gua bilank : 'kalo orang yg gua suka dideketin orang yg gua rasa better dari gua, ato yg the best buat ce itu.. gua ga akan kecewa kalo org itu yg dpt dia n bukan gua'..

dan dia bilank : 'yang lu rasa terbaik buat ce itu blom tentu yang dia rasa terbaik buat dia..' n kalo ga salah dia lanjutin dgn 'bisa jadi bagi dia elo yg terbaik'...

bener juga...

Currently listening to: ratu - salahkah aku terlalu mencintaimu

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August 8th, 2005

why we blog

alrite, this is my theory, by no means accurate..

u look at that sarongpartygirl and kinda ask, what's all the fuss about..

she made a blog, put up her nude pic, wrote her opinion, no big deal..

but there she was, interviewed by newspapers n became the talk of some part of the town for a short while.. some condemn her and some applaud her.. i think she is a very gud writer n has critical thot.. so i pitied her when she was attacked by some..

but wait.. can that be what she is looking for? can that be the reason why some people blog? or most people blog?

attention... probably that's the word..

we live in a society where there are too many things we could get ourself engaged in.. too much distraction.. too many obligations.. too much information..

and many suffer from attention deficiency (geez.. kinda rusty in vocab.. not even sure if i spell it rite)..

people seek attention..

some said they just feel like sharing with others but in the end.. it's all about attention..

people want others to know what they've been thru, what they know, what they've come up with after nights of deep thoughts...

people want others to know what they are all about.. recognition.. ah.. that's the other word...

sometime it's harder to get people's attention in the real world, coz u got to be competing with so many other attention seekers at the same time..

but when u blog, n u put ur blog link for other to click on, n they click on.. the page will open and inside there, they can only find things about u..

that's y blog appeals i guess...

n in real world, appearance matters.. when a very pretty girl speak, even if she is dumb, people will get to listen..

when a nerd looking guy speak, even if he know what he is talking about, people will ignore..

but blog is different, no one care how good looking you are.. if ur writing sucks.. they dun read..

unless u put up ur pictures.. that's another story..

attention, recognition.. nothin wrong with that.. it's natural..

the question is... do you really need that? other people's attention?

the question is... will that satisfy you?

Posted by phoenix_chix at 11:25 AM | Add a Comment

domino effect

two nites ago.. i chatted with 'grandma' till 6 am.. so among the topics were regarding ppl who are too lazy to reply sms, especially if the reply gonna be confirmation kinda stuff.. n juz now a fren juz email, complainin lack of response from other (she iz organizing an outing tonite), she isnt even getting a yes or no.. most ppl apparently find it a great waste of resource to reply...

i find myself to be one of those who is yet to reply.. surprise surprise...

had the same email been sent last year, or two years ago, i would juz reply n let her know.. i hate it, well hate is a strong word, i dislike it when ppl got away with 'assumption'..

how can u assume that by u not replying ppl would understand that as a 'no' or 'yes'.. can't u appreciate that person's effort to ask u?

how can u, juz bcoz u r too late to read the email or sms, assume that the sender doesn't need ur reply anymore.. can't u do it for the sake of courtesy?

basically i dun consider any given reason valid unless that lazy person can ensure me that he/she can be impartial in practicing his/her sms/email policy regardless of the sender's status..

that is to say, even if it's ur parents, or bosses, or boy/girlfriends, or pastors, or whoever it is.. u would do the same..

i believe had the person who sms/email u been of greater importance to u, u would reply..

so.. when u (me) have been dealing with these kind of ppl for long time.. somehow u juz got tired of all that and ur only refuge is to act exactly the same way!!!

so i begin to develop this bad habit of delaying or even forgetting to reply sms or email when i ASSUME that the issue is not that important..

so that the next time someone treated my sms or email with disrespect i can tel myself 'thats fine.. i've been doing the same anyway'...

but no.. i think thats wrong.. why should i lower my standard.. why stop doing something i know is right..

they are the ones who need to change..

so i'm going to reply my friend's email now..

another situation i dislike - let say u r goin concert with bunch of fren.. A ask u to ask around who is goin... so u ask around.. sms let say.. n let say there is this B who plan to go n she talked to A already bout it..

so... when she got ur sms.. she ASSUME she doesn't need to reply.. why? coz she ASSUME A would know anyway n she will be there anyway.. n basically she treated ur sms as TRIVIAL...

i say.. she should just reply n say something like 'ya im comin.. btw, next time no need to sms me, juz ask A, thx' ... now that is more acceptable..

so i guez i decide to..

don't assume, observe..

don't judge, accept..

n when u know u r doing something right.. let not the world's standard affect u.. but strive to be even better..

stop the domino effect.. stand up for ur belief n not fall like the rest..

Posted by phoenix_chix at 02:49 PM | Add a Comment

August 12th, 2005

ps2, romance of three kingdoms, rpg, WE, etc...

ya.. gonna buy PS2 finally.. me n my 2 housemates gonna co-own the box.. smell of more ineffective hours.. muz restrain myself from playin too much RPG liao.. muz make it a point only play ps2 when on holidays back at jakarta.. but then never had enuf time to finish off any game recently.. too busy catchin up with frens etc etc.. i've even abandoned my unfinished article on RPG.. what a shame..

the truth is the last meaningful RPG i played was FF X, which was like.. 1/2 years ago? didn't get to complete the game.. nothin to do with lack of time.. the truth is i have bad habit of abandoning the game once i reach the point where defeating the final boss is the only thing left to do.. partly coz i've lost my curiosity n partly coz i'm so much in love with the story that i never want it to end..

guez i won't be playin RPG at the moment.. nothin interesting anyway.. Suikoden 4 is entertaining but I've played till the last mission as well... yet to complete though.. may play Star Ocean -till the end of time (ain't the title melancholy).. but first thing first, i wanna play Romance of Three Kingdoms X.. ah... the sheer thought of playin as Pang Dong aka Phoenix Chix.. pure joy...

anyway the reason we finally buy PS2 despite PS3 may come out next year is the inspiration that came from watchin the Winning Eleven competition organized by my church community service..

never an expert in WE.. i think i've become a better player since last holiday where my bro gave me some tips.. geez kids nowadays.. they always surpass their older siblings in many ways..

so fingers crossed.. we gonna get the PS2 this weekend.. luv it..

rite now listenin to compilation album by Victor Huang Ping Guan.. not bad.. hey i'm buyin original u know.. the cheaper original.. but still.. original..

n now i'm also typin on Mac's Safari browser runnin on, of course, all original Mac machine..

so yeah.. it feels gud to be original.. but it's costly.. so yeah.. it feels gud to have enuf money to afford all the original stuff..

Posted by phoenix_chix at 10:45 AM | Add a Comment

lazy friday

supervsior : phoenix... (half whisper)

me : yeah (almost yawn, half awake)

supervisor : are you not feeling well? (sounds concerned, concerned that he got scolded by big boss for lettin me sleepin while at work)

me: oh no. i'm alrite.. i juz got some flu (heck.. i lied.. a bit lah.. i feel dizzy after days of sleep deficiency but not realy flu.. what to do my brain wasn't workin at that moment.. can only spit out cheap lies)

so now i'm lookin at our competitor's website.. www.zinio.com , i'm supposed to find out how they do the zoom in n out thingy in their digital zine n apply the same to our product www.flipviewer.com

i failed my previous task btw.. he took over.. now he gave me even a harder task.. i dunno if that is a sign of trust or he is tryin to keep me in desperate state..

but despreate state is gud to keep me dependant on God..

but i love this job.. i love the fridge that always have drinks.. dun u know i love drinks more than foods.. i love the big table i have n the personal phone although i seldom use it.. i love the Mac im using although im strugglin.. i love the fact that i dun have close frens here to begin with.. easier to skip lunch.. i love the fact that many ppl also skip lunch.. ain't me gettin more antisocial than ever?

as always.. piles of papers full with my stupid drawing are so visible now.. but i still keep my table neat.. not bad huh for a phoenix chix whose bedroom looks like a post earthquake camp..

i haven't blog for almost a week.. n this is a chilling day so i gonna blog blog blog...

oh yeah.. gonna get my digicam this weekend.. muzz....

Posted by phoenix_chix at 11:12 AM | Add a Comment

saturated, jazz, n such

officially saturated this week.. dunno y.. juz got into job for 1 month plus n suddenly i feel i need a break..

n was thinkin.. should i try jazz @ southbridge since its so close to my house..

but then.. sigh.. i havent discovered what is so gud bout jazz...

i know i know.. sounds cool when u claim urself to be jazz lover..

instead of juz another ordinary music lover who listens to top 40..

but still.. jazz rarely appeal to me.. dunno y..

anyway.. juz figured out that my supervisor's computer name n email's add is 'sike'.. since his name is 'ke si'..

but sike in certain dialect actually means... 'dead chicken'...

poor him.. n i kept sayin that when we communicate its like chicken n duck.. so now i know who's who..

talkin bout duck..

a fren juz emailed me.. she juz got into relationship with a fren that she got to know from..

FRIENDSTER !@#$!

n she only joined frenster like.. 1-2 months ago?

sigh.. why can some people be so fast in movin on..

n so easy in deciding to be in love with someone else..

am i too slow.. are they too fast..

she mentioned the guy actually flew from perth back to her town to meet her..

i dunno.. to me that sounds like being unwise rather than romantic..

juz recalled another fren who was so proud of tellin me that this guy who was courting her flew from indonesia to meet her in singapore, taking biz class SQ..

i was like 'so what?'..

the only reason a guy could do that is bcoz he got enuf money to do that..

he could've done that for any other girl he likes..

geez..

a fren in her blog talked bout those girls tryin to speak english with british accent but failing to pronounce 'th' correctly.. i think thats really lame..

sumtimes u walk past by holland v n saw these asian girls hangin around with some angmohs.. n they r so full of themselves..

i dunno why they r so damn proud of being with those angmohs who in my mind.. r juz another race..

n y can't they feel the same when they r hanging around wif, say, some african ppl.. who r also juz another race..

i've got nothin against angmohs but i have so far failed to find what's so special bout them really..

sure they got colorful hair, eyeballs, sharp noses, they r tall etc.. but omg.. that's God wonder n they've no part in it.. n so what if the black dun look as pretty? that's also God's masterpiece u know..

some argue 'they r more open n frenly'

i say 'no.. its us who are not open enuf n less frenly.. n after all, juz bcoz they r nice to u doesn't mean they mean it'..

we, human, are indeed lame..

Posted by phoenix_chix at 05:55 PM | Add a Comment

August 15th, 2005

wanted to watch the maid yesterday, but ended up watchin valiant coz ticket sold out. valiant isn't particularly funny like madagascar but nonetheless, pretty entertaining n by the end of the movie, i learned that there were pigeons which got awarded for their contribution in world war II..

tried pizza taglio n have to say the fud is quite nice.. but gotta stop spending this way.. or else, find a parttime job..

i never got to buy my digicam coz i had some printin job to do n realized that juz beside ultra supplies printing store at queensway shopping center, there is a magic shop that provide some magic lessons.. will go there n see if i can pick up some tricks..

saw lotsa 20$ jeans there.. but i was too sleepy to do shopping so i juz head back home n slept till 9PM..

then watchin urban escape, there are quite a number of places where i can get some short lessons on interesting stuff such as french cuisine or bowl making.. the Royal Selangor thingy is near my house apparently..

ow.. tried seah street deli at raffles hotel on friday nite wif couple of frens.. geez.. the texas burger is really big!! muz try..

eniwei.. i'm tired.. my 'the days we meet' project been abandoned for 2 weeks.. when u r workin things out all by urself.. it's tiring.. it's not fun.. it sux....

maybe i think of myself too highly but ... nvm ...

Posted by phoenix_chix at 11:11 AM | Add a Comment

maliq n d'essentials - untitled

why everybody is using the word 'untitled' as their song title nowadays.. thats stealing my idea =( i've wanted to write super nice song n title it 'untitled'...

so now i'm gonna listen to maliq's untitled.. my bro's sending me the song tellin me he can guarantee that should i sing well n play guitar well.. i can sing to the girl i like n confirm confirm she gonna burst in tears lol...

bro u r so nice but i guez u dunno woman enuf despite ur rich experience in relationship..

never generalize woman =D

so yeah.. gonna learn this song anyway.. he succeeded in tickling my curiousity..

Posted by phoenix_chix at 12:50 PM | Add a Comment

say something anyway

pernah kepikir ga ya.. kalo misalnya lu tiba2 harus mati, apa se yang lu bakal nyesel ga pernah ucapin?bukan lakuin loh ( jd yg kaya ke niagara, liat piramid, ato nae pesawat lewatin segitiga bermuda itu ga masuk itungan).. erm tapi ya bisa jg libatin melakukan sesuatu.. tp intinya say something gituh.. bingunk jg..

mungkin contohnya, lebih ke hal kaya

- nyelinap ke tengah2 sidang mpr yg diliput tipi, ambil mic n marahin semua orang2 korup yg ngaku2 wakil rakyat n duduk enak2 di bangku mpr

- nyelinap ke tengah2 sidang MUI, ambil mic lagi, n marahin mrk2 yg ngaku taat sama Allah tapi ga sungkan2 abisin nyawa orang2 yang jelas2 diciptain ama Allah sendiri (kynya kalo uda ke MPR, uda ga bakal bisa ke MUI seh.. keburu ditangkep, n kalo uda ke MUI.. hmm ga tau d bisa keluar idup2 ga hehe)

- dtgin gembala2 gereja gede n marahin satu2.. ngapain seh anti ama aliran x, aliran y, ngerasa sendiri bener, ribut sama sesama gereja, saling rebut domba, jadi bahan tertawaan org2 luar..

n hal2 yang lebih pribadi kaya

- dtg ato telponin temen2 terdeket n bilank ke mereka kalo mereka bener2 uda bikin idup loe lebih rame, biarpun ga lama..

- dtgin orang2 yg pernah lu sayang, pernah sayang lu, n bilank ke mereka, how beautiful they are di mata lu, n how special they always are di ati lu...

- dtgin dia yg lu palink sayang di detik ini n bilank ke dia 'i wish that the last words i'm gonna here is that you love me too' n bilank ke dia 'gua ga pernah cape buat bilank kalo gua sayank elo'

- dtgin sodara kandung loe, n bilank ke dia 'jgn jadi bayangan gua, tapi lu harus lebih dari gua dalam segala nya, n loe itu temen gua yg terbae'

- dtgin bonyok, peluk mereka, n bilank ke mereka 'ga ada yg lebih sayank aku di dunia ini drpd kalian berdua.. aku sayang papa n mama.. wish u live happily ever after'

ya mgkn hal2 spt itu..

dan juz that moment before ur last breath..

- tutup mata n bilank ginih ke Tuhan Yesus 'Tuhan.. makasih buat setiap hari yg uda lewat n setiap org yg uda hadir di hidup yg ga terlalu panjang ini.. aku ga sabar buat pulank ke rumah.. tadaima.. '

i guez when u die young.. lu punya byk yg pengen lu omongin..

i guez.. it's gud to die young..

*inspired by So Hok Gie (duh gmn pula spellnya..)

Currently listening to: initial d OST

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August 19th, 2005

bible

how could you replace bible with another book?

how could you ponder on bible less than your do on some other books?

Posted by phoenix_chix at 11:42 AM | Add a Comment

hungry ghost festival

what about hungry people?

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August 22nd, 2005

kata dan kentut

i love watchin wuxia series, n one of the phrases u often heard is this 'you hua kuai shuo, you pi kuai fang'.. literally means.. if u got somethin to say, say it quick, if u got to fart, fart quick.. err. sounds gross... but yeah... lately been wondering aja...

apa dunia ini emank dr dulu uda begini.. ato baru belakangan, dimana kata2 yg terucap cuman sedikit lebih berharga, sedikit lebih reliable daripada kentut yg keluar. ga ada maksud kasar seh dgn kentut.. tapi naturally kentut itu ya angin, somethin yg pas keluar lu bisa cium baunya, n after a while.. ilank ntah kemana.. n biasa org ga pengen held responsible buat kentut yg dia keluarin.. mungkin gua maksa seh.. tapi rasanya bener2 ada persamaan d..

gua ga claim gua ga pernah go back against omongan ndiri seh.. spt halnya kentut.. semua org pasti pernah n ada wktnya terpaksa hrs kentut.. cuman at least kynya gua selalu berusaha ga kentut seenak ati kapan n dimana aja..

gua ngerti kdg2 org say somethin biar seru, biar rame aja.. 'yokk ke korea taon depann!!! eh iya, gua mao ke jeju island!! eh liatin2 brp duit.. wah ada offer murah neh!! bla bla bla....'
n expectedly pas taon depan 'eh gua ga bisa neh, baru abis beli kulkas!! gua jg ga bisa.. ayam gua mati blom 49 hari.. ga boleh travel!! yaa sayank bangett....'
gitu d.. n semua live happily ever after.. kecuali mgkn satu dua org yg uda cape2 nabung n ga ambil cuti demi acara itu..

mgkn kalo ditanya.. semua bkl bilank 'doh.. benerann gua itu mao pergi.. gmn donk tapi ini... taon dpn d ya'
i think thats PR talk.. sadar ga sadar.. kalo niat commit, pasti tetep bisa kok.. n again... gua jg pernah ky gitu..

by no mean ngejudge sapa2.. intinya cuman keluarin teori bahwa di jaman skrg..kata2 itu sering cuman sedikit lebih reliable dari kentut...

jd ngerti napa alkitab bilank lidah itu yg palink susah dikontrol..

Posted by phoenix_chix at 12:10 AM | Add a Comment

the curse of the wise

not curse lah.. but the problem with wise people who got it right 90% of the time is that, when they got it wrong, they juz couldn't see that. unfortunately, sometimes that 10% is more crucial than the 90% they got right.

it's all about ego...

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August 23rd, 2005

dan seperti itu..

ada malam-malam yang dilewati,

dengan sesak, oleh udara berbau dusta, dan

mata pun perih, dimana-mana hanya topeng,

jemu..

dan seperti itu, malam pun lalu..

dan pagi.. ditelannya malam,

langit tersenyum polos, seakan tiada yang berakhir,

seakan semua baru dimulai,

indah..

dan seperti itu, kita pun tertawa..

dan seperti itu, kita bertahan,

dan seperti itu, kita menanti,

dan seperti itu, kita mencinta,

karena ada pagi..

Posted by phoenix_chix at 09:33 AM | Add a Comment

August 24th, 2005

meal time conversation

lately, my fave lunch place is my own office desk.. n many ppl in my office are the same. why? why not?

n my fave dinner place, gotta be a coffee shop at the toa payoh bus terminal.. a modest place filled with mostly ah peks. so u got to have ur quick dinner there while listening to those ah peks telling stories. they would talk bout everythin in the news. be it NKF, or in yesterday's case, news on some ungrateful young ppl who abandoned their parents..

i guez.. some ppl love to be the center of attention, even when they turn into ah pek.. so there is this ah pek who should've gone before i start eating but end up still there by the time i walked out from the coffee shop. the thing is, he juz couldn't resist the temptation to talk, tell stories n got the rest excited. once he had already stood up from his chair and almost walked out. then suddenly someone said something, n the next second he said 'eh wa kak lu kong hor...'(lemme tell u hor) n quickly grab his chair n he forgot he needed to leave.

one of the interesting story he told was bout a secondary girl who came to school with red bra, so visible that the teacher told her to wear the white one instead. the next day the girl's mum came to school n scold the teacher. she said 'ur job is to teach. what u got to do with my child's bra? what r u doing lookin at her bra?'... making the teacher sounds like a pervert who couldn't resist seeing students with colorful bra.

i dunno if the ahpek was making up stories but i believe nowadays, some parents juz never know how to raise their kids. no wonder the kids got no clue how to take care of their parents.

still.. i felt a bit awkward when they were busy condemning today's young people yesterday coz well.. i was the only young person there.. have wanted to say somethin but unless you got too much time to kill, the golden rule when dealing with ahpeks is :

never start an unnecessary conversation, u will have hard time ending it..

Currently listening to: GMB's Nothing is Impossible album

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August 26th, 2005

baby blues

my ex housemate, david, is an avid reader of the comic strip.. i got infected n i reallyy like zoe, that bullish big sister. david is at dubai now.. hope everythin is goin well with him.. gonna miss our toilet which looked a bit like library with all those comics inside. n as a person, he's more honest than most other people i know.. i've almost reached a point where i really feel that all the nice things said, all the nice smiles, are juz wallpaper that u can't take seriously, it can change anytime, drastically..

but there is alwayz a person like david who convince me that not everybody know how to put on their masks...

speaking of baby.. its baby season in my office.. there is like 4 or 5 staff who have or are expecting baby around this time.. everybody were really excited about the baby topic.. i'm not involved of course.. a salesperson whose baby was just born 2 days ago massmail us an attached 'product factsheet'.. the product being his baby's detail of course.. that's sweet.. hardcore salesperson.. n my CTO even told him to target for next product launch by next year.. man.. that's tough for the mum.. a true baby blues..

juz got a call for interview.. reckon there is chance to get higher pay.. but i'm juz 2 months into this new job and geez... i like this job.. so there gone my extra few hundred bucks..

to make up for that.. i guez parttime job must be thrown into equation..

bidded for a modest minolta digicam.. hope can get it..

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August 27th, 2005

my beloved

this morning He woke me up, and whisper ever so gently to me 'I am still as faithful and as in love with you... nothing has ever changed from the day I created you'

..... not even sin, not even doubt, not even hell could change that....

i love you too, Abba, so much..

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August 29th, 2005

first rank B mission

finally, my first BIG mission!!! ouch..

hardly the most important mission of course, but still, a far cry from my previous tasks in terms of the scale and difficulty level..

my supervisor has assigned me to work INDIVIDUALLY on implementing a Personal Library feature to our Mac Flipviewer product. it's building from the scratch. my only help is the now finished Windows version of the stuff. this is really strange, considering that the first time I saw our e-book product, the first idea that came into my mind was that we would need to create a personal library system which is easy to navigate for users. of course they have thought of that long before that 'brilliant' idea popped into my head. and now i'm assigned to do it. guess your wild imagination can bring you somewhere huh.. so God, what about my wild imagination to work with Arsene Wenger?^^

target dateline is 2-3 months which i translated into 3-4 months considering i need to start learning delphi first, and then x-code (somekinda mac development tool), and then the coding. geez.. my first baby.. partly excited partly overwhelmed.

usually i would start whine and complain how difficult it gonna be. and to be realistic, this mission is indeed not easy. but nothin is impossible with You who's living in me ^^ estoi listo Senior!!

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