Entries for September, 2005

September 1st, 2005

procastinating week

i've been really ineffective this week.. i guess i'm still overwhelmed by my new project and when phoenix is given 3 months dateline you can expect him to sit back and procastinate.. sigh..old habit die hard..

let's see what happen after work this week
monday: dinner with ata n vivy.. went to far east sq's changing apetite but closed so we went beppu menkan instead.. 2 chilli this time, i'm restraining myself from getting overchillied lately.. talked bout our batch's reunion on november.. somehow looking forward to it.. some of us have changed in this five years but we all change i guess...

tuesday: combined cellgroup.. love that family feeling.. heck if it's only wallpaper partly.. it's a nice wallpaper anyway.. thx God for such a family..

wednesday: CARL'S!!!!!! i finally got to taste carl's burger after all this while. i looovve the chilli beef fries.. bloody nice!! should've tried the double bacon cheese but i was persuaded to try super star instead.. pretty big burger though a bit overpriced imho.. we were busy teasing elsa for being too thin n pale lately.. poor elsa.. but that's true u know.. prefer your chubby look few years back, so gain some weight ya!! =D

thursday: first youth nite meeting with yoan at killiney's ayam lova!! was voted to head the committee for youth nite 2005... never an expert in leading role, especially for event organizing, i can only ask for God's grace.. but in yoan, i think i've a very capable support.. she's just so efficient..

friday: plan to go wala2.. see how..

saturday: plan to have a meal cum meeting session with my cellmates but well.. they may have dates n such so.. see how also..


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books on my desk

let's see what's on my desk now

- Carbon Programming (Bricknell SAMS)
- Learning Carbon (ADC O'REILLY)
- Borland Delphi 7 Developer's Guide
- Mac OS X Advanced Development Techniques (Zobkiw Developer's Library)
- Mac OS X Tiger Pocket Guide (O'REILLY)
- Cocoa Programming For Mac OS X (Addison Wesley) -> nicest layout among all
(sigh.. my beloved Java's System.out.println() line is nowhere to be seen.. everything is C++ and objective C now)

dun ask me what's they're all about coz i haven't got a single clue either.. Carbon Programming pretty much cover everything you need to know about Carbon and it helps me a lot.. a good reference book..

Borland Delphi 7 is.. yawn... well... zzz....

the rest are there to make me look hardworking.. stocking a lot of thick books and printout on your desk is alwayz a good camouflage to make you looks smarter and more diligent than you actually are..

trying to read the Cocoa book now.. at least this one got some nice layout (vespa drawing methink).. so.. ganbare!!!


Currently listening to: FIR - dunno the title
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September 5th, 2005

yi lu xiang bei

if i could just pack everythin n get moving..
speeding down the highway, going where the compass points..
pacing myself surpassing your shadow..
to a point where my sky won't be filled with your smile anymore..

inspired by jay chou's initial d OST
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September 6th, 2005

the myth

Bun-sama is crazy about the myth's OST at the moment, he got me to dl the song and now i'm hooked.. the song is simple.. but i juz love it.. the music score is pretty much like Final Fantasy's OST.. the lyric?
err something that has got to do with 1000 years of waiting.. it's the myth's OST, what do you expect?

the lyric is here and the song's mp3 is here.

i'm pretty inspired by the song.. so be prepared for another 'crap inspiration'.. as for the moment.. time to shut down this comp and get back home for cellgroup.. 
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September 7th, 2005

korea korea korea

kemaren kita omongin soal dian de el el yg mao ke korea desember.. trus jadi omongin ce2 korea which, harus gua akuin, gua lately lbh suka ce korea drpd ce2 jepang.. omg.. something wrong with me.. juz that.. artis2 jepang skrg look so fake kdg2.. not that korean are genuine, especially with their plastic surgery mass practice..

en ternyata gua ama irwan sama2 suka chae rim


which menurut bombieeee... MIRIP, yak MIRIPPP, sama lulu tobing..... HAH SAPA??? LULU TOBING!!!! IYAA LULU TOBING YANG INI:::



Ohh lulu tobing...HAH DIA MIRIP SAPA???? erm.. chae rim... iya.. chae rim yang ini ::


gua ama irwan ampe nyaris speechless.. ary wibowo jg pingsan kali kalo dgr lulu tobing mirip chae rim.. meskipun kalo gua paksa2in percaya.. well mulut mrk agak mirip kali yah..

ok d.. mgkn bahwa gua ama irwan ngerasa dia artis korea tercakep itu bias.. gmn donk namanya beauty in the eye of beholder.. tapi ya gua ga bisa byk argue seh.. kalo bombie bilank menurut dia lebih cakep si hye gyo::
 

yg sejak maen full house jadi si otak burung, gua jadi rada jatuh cinta.. temptation nya gede kalo ce semanis itu maen jd ce clumsy n bae ati ky si otak burung.. after all gua jg jatoh cinta ama chae rim waktu dia maen di dating now jd ce yg rada2 clumsy juga.. 

n lately.. sejak ntn innocent steps, jadi agak tergoda jg sama si moon::



darn... napa mereka cakep2 semua =( kan susah milihnya lol..

tapi ya.. i dun mind buat tetep support chae rim seh =D n NO NO NO.. dia GA MIRIP SAMA SEKALI SAMA LULU TOBING!!!!

eniwei tabulas ternyata cuman terima 30 images max buat disimpen... sampe skrg cuman nyimpen imagenya si jens lehmann yg save penalty scholes.. tapi demi menyelamatkan nama bae chae rim, sacrifice d ^^
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September 8th, 2005

thousand years

if i am strong enough i would love you deeper day by day
but i am not
if i am strong enough i would carry this love on my wings and
glide thru season after season
but i am not
if i am strong enough i would even wait for you for thousand years
but i am not

i can't help it if i love you less everyday
i even let autumn wind take away the reasons i fell for you
and thousand years later we will be strangers...

you are so much loved you might never understand this but...

to find true love you need to try and sometimes cry
for your best partner ain't dropping in front of your door and waits forever

you've got so much chances you might not believe this but...

those who can't appreciate what they have
don't deserve even a glimpse of what they long to have

for 'thousand years' is a journey of four footsteps
of two hearts that wait for each other

*my latest crap inspiration, thx to the myth's OST ^^



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September 13th, 2005

easy phoenix.. easy...

i don't like it when someone change the plan at the 11th hour, i can tolerate surprises and i think life needs surprises but i don't put 'surprise' n 'inconsistency' in the same bracket.. i did write a long piece on how i thought words and fart are almost equally reliable nowadays.. so nuff said.. that's the way life is dude..

easy phoenix... easy...

anyway i juz decided to take a break from my vocal ministry.. if this happens few years ago i would've spit out all my reasons but i guess in certain part i do grow up a lill bitt =P so ya.. i shall keep the reasons to myself and i shall take my time to discuss this with God.. see what He thinks..

read the article bout three sunday school teachers (married women) who got JAILED bcoz they teach some moslem kids who VOLUNTARILY joined the sunday schools some christian SONGS. such stupid case could only happen in my beloved Indonesia. i felt the goosebumps when i read the article. i dunno why but i was so thrilled.. these three women were out there in the battlefield, standing tall side by side with the Almighty of Israel.. and what are we doing here? enjoying our time every Sunday in five stars hotel.. 

i wanna be at the battlefield...


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September 14th, 2005

some wise words from the radio

..you wen ti de shi hou, bie wen zhen me ban.. yao kan ze ban..
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September 15th, 2005

rasa ga jelas

lately lagi have that kinda feeling.. ga jelas.. perasaan ky floating gituh.. terbang ga mampu, tenggelam ga rela.. n i can tell u that is one of the worst feelings in the world..

when u r falling head over heels with someone.. it feels great..
when ur heart is shattered into pieces.. it hurts.. but it still feels great..
when u r threading ur life path with that very 'her'.. it feels like touching the realm of eternity..
when u r waiting for someone u love so dearly.. it feels great.. 

but when u juz can't tell who u r falling for, n no one is breaking ur heart.. 
n of course u r walking alone n u wait for no one as the world pass you by..
it feels .. i guess u can't feel anythin.. juz blank..

n few days, few months, few years down the road..
u wonder.. if you'd reach a point..

where u'd forget how to fall like a fool for somone..
n ur heart'd become too hard to break..
n u r so used to solitude..
that u'd juz wait for the moment ur heart forget how to beat..

so i guezz it's gud that this'd never happen coz my Best Friend's love consumes me..
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September 18th, 2005

my life is brilliant

my life is brilliant... ->that's how james blunt started the song.. u'r beautiful.. i juz luvvv the song.. ^^ except for the 'fucking high' part.. heck he ruined the whole song with that word..

i feel kinda high now.. not bcoz of alcohol la.. that's what u get by combining flu n diarhea.. so much wanted to take my MC tomorrow but.. sigh im still strugglin with my new task. n if i take MC.. that means i'd be doing hattrick, 3 months 3 mc... n the problem is i'm not a girl.. i dun have that monthly MC priviledge..

juz heard that one of the girls i kinda like back in hi school is now somebody else' s wife.. n to think back.. i guez i did let too many things passed me by..

today is iot bday but since i kinda 'high' i couldnt come.. talkin bout bday.. its a funny thing..
celebratin bday till 2 AM, been there.. waking up at 5 to celebrate a fren's bday, done that..
but dun expect juz bcoz u've done that, that very fren will do that for u when its ur birthday..
n dun think too much.. coz itz juz bday..
since life has never been mathematical.. 1+1 sometimes equal zero..

tomorrow is monday.. i dunno if i can focus at office but i'm tellin u this:

my life is brilliant...

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September 21st, 2005

zhu wo sheng ri kuai le

ya elsa sent me that song.. sounds familiar but i forgot where did i first hear the song.. i dun quite like it when jay chou overdid his  murmuring thingy (he also did that in the initial d's OST i think).. it makes him sounds like a retarded instead of desperate man.. but i really like the intro music n landy's got sexy voice there.. n after few rounds of listening to the song i think i really love the song n been listening to this song since early morning.. n the fans cheering is juz nice.. ain't it fun.. to be a singer with lotsa fun cheering for you.. 

which brought me to the wei lian's winning the project superstar stuff.. many ppl protested saying he won bcoz  ppl pity him and voted for him.. then i asked those protesting ppl 'do u vote for the other finalist?' or do u vote at all?' n most of the times the answer is 'no'.. geez then just stop protesting and accept the fact that wei lian may just have got more fans who'd act rather than juz talk..

there were ppl rumouring that joy tobing also won indonesia idol coz she bribed dunno who..  i dunno bout that but i think it's clear that her voice quality was outstanding back then, obviously better than those who came up with such lame story.. n juz remember that vivi sent me delon's song, i think the title was 'terjaga di setiap mimpiku' composed by yovie widyanto, my fave composer.. blah.. sorry vi.. but delon really ruined the song.. his voice was much too opera lah..

okay enough rant.. 

so i took my MC on monday n u noe what.. my junior SMS-ed me n told me that her dad juz bought lotsa mooncake n she wanted to give me some.. so we met n i came back with 2 boxes of mooncakes.. not my fave durian mooncake but still.. it was some delicious snow skin taro mooncake.. n its touching..
i dunno what good deed i've done but i think i've been much nicer to many other ppl (not to say that i'm a nice person, i'm an antisocial bloke in fact) and yet.. i guez there are angels God put around you.. 
to tell u that this world is not all doom and gloom..
there is hope.. and love.. if u have faith..



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cute quiz from vivi

actually this one is for gurl.. the quiz is not that accurate, its for fun only.. but the page itself is nice.. so juz visit here to try it out.. 
i tried it out, imagining wat kinda cute girl i'd fall for and tadaa... 'angelic cutie' is my type apparently..
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September 23rd, 2005

love is that lil thing u do

around 2 weeks ago, as usual i went to my fave dinner place, that modest canteen at the bus interchange where uncles love to boast their knowledge every evening..  i didn't know that i ran out of cash n after ordering my food n was about to pay then.. well, i was 'insignificantly' 20 cents short.. 
so i juz told the auntie i gonna pay her the 20 cents the next time i come..
expectedly she didn't mind...

but what surprised me was that she told me 'its alrite, u can pay me next time, u can keep ur money to buy drink.. do u have enough money to go home?'..
i was speechless.. there i was, all grown up in this selfish world, so much harden by disappointment n rejection n yet.. even in this crazy world n wicked time, love survives..
i know a 3$ meal is peanut to what david beckham donated for, let say, that 'make poverty history' movement..
but there's no doubt she's juz as genuine, if not more..

n it doesn't take a mega concert, inviting all those celebs, to show that u care, coz love is that lil thing u do.. to the least important fella.. when the world's too busy to notice, let alone putting ur act on the news..
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September 26th, 2005

senen pagi

haeh.. otak mase nolak bekerja..
uda book tic buat pulank indo, sabtu siang tgl 29. trus balik sini hari minggu depan, tgl 6 i think.. nae valuair.. tapi gua ga demen valuair.. lbh menarik nae philipine air biarpun menurut bombie (which emank bener) itu pesawat didominasi mbak2 pekerja.. but they're nice folks too.. n pesawatnya much bigger, n pramugarinya lbh mirip pramugari, n mknannya lbh mirip mknan.. mslh philipine air cuman satu, i gotta wake up at bloody 3 AM to catch flight back to sg from jkt.. gudnes..
tapi maseh coba cari pesawat laen yg ga beda jaoh ama valuair, n bisa pulank jumat malem.. lmyn dpt extra semalem.. 

pagi2 my very gud fren nanya 
'eh, dgr dari si r (yg emank cukup2 ember hiehehie =P ), si x uda jadian ama si y yah? kaget aja, kirain dia bakal jadian ama si z'
'oh iya.. dia jadian ama y.. ga kecewa kan? hehe'
'ga ko.. uda berlalu hehe'
which reminds me that.. time does work.. n the last time such thing would matter to him wud be 3 years ago...

oh ya dikirimin owen lagu 'menunggu pagi' nya peter pan, OST alexandria.. hm keren jg seh lagunya.. ada percakapan gitu di tengah2.. dr pelemnya i think.. ce nya suaranya.. typical dian sastro gitu.. dia omong something like
'aku nunggu.. nunggu.. tapi akhirnya aku sadar, kamu ga sesayang itu ama aku'..
mantaph... 
dan mungkin aku ga sesayang itu sama kamu...
trus jg lagi ntn pelem drama 'my 19 yrs old sister-in-law', korean.. 
ada satu interesting part jg ttg nunggu.. ce itu ceritanya nunggu co yg dia suka yg jg lagi nunggu ex ce dia yg ga tau kabur kemana.. ain't this waiting game sucks..

then percakapan lanjut with my fren...

'kapan bakal jadian'
'kalo muncul org yg berani suka aku.. n yg aku berani suka'
'lho? si p uda history kah?'
'ga, maseh idup, masak history? huehehhe.. yah tapi dia so far ga pernah jadi orang yg berani suka aku'
'jadi mao beralih arah?'
*mikir....
'hm aku maseh nunggu dia.. tapi kan ga tertutup kemungkinan.. kalo kita emank ga meant to be.. n org yg seharusnya sama aku kemudian muncul =) '
 'ok.. hehehehe...'
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September 28th, 2005

hei.. my first entry with emoticon!!

juz woke up from my nap  in my prev job i used to take lotsa nap that i never realized how great nap was. i even sometimes had a totally undisturbed nap for 2 hrs.. geez.. how guilty that was  nowadays 45 mins nap is the most i can take coz my supervisor only takes 10-15 mins nap every day.. 
one thing bout my prev company is that.. i did learn that small company can sometimes be so warm n fun... we're juz so together in facing all the problems.. ya.. my bosses were also nice ppl.. 
but sometimes love juz ain't enough.. 

*hei juz walked past by my mac teammates n omg.. they re all taking nap now.. including my supervisor!! i sud have continued my nap to make it 4 out of 4.. great team 

i'm actually pretty settled in my current company, hard task everyday but it's fun.. juz that when i look at my hi school frens.. those who messed with their school n barely made it every year, now they're seriously involved in their own business, big n small.. i guez we've got some catching up in hand.. i can't be too bothered about the fact that like 20% of them are either married or going towards that direction though.. 
since no one decides to take my hand so far i can do nothin about it  

on anime.. glad that i got back my weekly dose of chidori kaname now that full metal panic is back with 'the second raid'.. not as funny as fumofu, season 3 is much darker in story. when it comes to comedy cum action cum tragedy i think FMP is still somewhat behind full metal alchemist.

ops.. mr supervisor woke up.. time to return to my cocoa 
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September 29th, 2005

sendiri menanti cinta

Aku cuma jalani hari. jalani jalani... waktu pagi datang, tersenyum pada pagi, lantas berjuang lewati hari dan waktu malam datang, berjuang menahan laju nya berharap pagi datang sedikit lebih perlahan. tapi pagi datang, dan pasti. 

dan sendiri. ada yang bilang berdua itu lelah. ada yang bilang sendiri menanti lebih lelah. Aku pun ngga ngerti dimana letak bahagia. Tapi manusia terus mencari cinta. Mungkin tidak semua tangan yang bergandengan merasa bahagia. dan tidak semua rumah yang terisi ada damai. lalu dimana letak bahagia? dibalik luka kah? 

dan menanti. mengapa bising mengapa gusar? jika kamu mau menanti, diamlah dan nantikan dia. jika kamu mau berhenti, katakan dan pergilah. di malam tanpa bintang pun, matahari ngga akan datang lebih cepat. kamu ngga bisa percepat apa yang belum waktunya. dan kamu ngga perlu menanti apa yang ngga akan datang. itu bukan setia, itu bodoh.

dan cinta. jangan percaya kata orang. kita semua pecundang dalam cinta. hanya Cinta yang mengerti cinta. kita semua hanya coba mengerti, dan tidak pernah mengerti.
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among the top 5% ^^

my boss decided to treat us for crystal jade lunch today.. omg i was so full i had hard time staying awake after that.. the dimsum were superb and add to that a big bowl of la mian..and durian pudding.. bloated..

he said this funny thing when we had lunch 'i think those developers who got thru Seet (our CIO)'s interview gotta be about the top 5% developers around', reason being Seet has gotten 20 years of experience and as such, very rarely make mistakes when it comes to employing developers..

and geez.. that implies that i am either
1. the very rare case where Seet got it all wrong
2. the very honorable part of the top 5% developers

now.. considering that this developer has just spent his entire day blogging, writing unrelated articles, sleeping, and blogging... without a single code produced.. it really appears that er.. i am most likely the very rare case where Seet got it all wrong.. which means i was convincing during the interview huh? 

haha no lah.. i'm not that skeptic of my own capability... as much as i doubt i am among the top 5%, i believe i have what it takes to make it here.. 

my dad used to say 'if others can do it, you can do it'.. n that principle was with him ever since he was a kid.. he used to be a very capable businessman with mean eye for business opportunity.. he dared to try everything n smart enough to cover his ass in the process.. 

but his history also taught me that there are some other factors which determine your success, skill and talent apart.. that's y i don't really bother to read all those key-to-success books.. if that person can make it without reading any book, so can i... if that person owed his success to certain book, then i'd rather read that book he read instead of his own book.. and so on..  in the end it all boils down to the eternal and ultimate wisdom source, the bible that is..

i'm not saying that the bible gonna tell you which stock to buy or sell today..
nor would it tell me how to complete this bloody complex application i'm working on..
it simply introduces me to a very special Friend who means more than all those..
n that very Fren makes sure everything will work out fine.. 

so back to the ultimate question:'am i among the top 5%?'
honestly.. i dun think so lah... but if the question is:'can i compete with the top 5%?'
then i guez the answer is.. 'yes'... 
if you work hard enough, it's enough.. God gonna take care of the rest..




Currently listening to: let's get it started - black eyed peas
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September 30th, 2005

weekend life

juz watched andy lau's new movie last night with elsa, mbun, n his housemates.. nice movie.. simple but nice.. gonna write my review at our moviecrushers.blogspot.com later on..
oh and tis is friday nite..
n my fren juz wrote in our mailin threads that she thot it has become a habit for us living here in sg to find somewhere to hang out with frens on friday nite.. it's taboo to her to juz return home after work..it kills her apparently..
obviously she is the master of hyperbolic language but still i think some people do have problems with not going anywhere on friday nite..
a problem which i have not..
and never had ever since i was born..
a blessing of the introverted? might be.. but i have another introvert fren who used to need that weekly dose of weekend outing..

i guez i love home..
i love a peaceful home.. which to me surpass any pub or club there is..
playing console game with my bro, listening to my mum's ever repeated stories, n some politic chat with my dad.. such things make my weekend..
but of course there are times when your home feels like er.. hell.. n u juz feel like escaping..
but then.. family has the ability to come together the next day n sit down to have a peaceful dinner together..
juz recall that words said in andy lau's movie
'yi ge jia, shao le yi ge ren ye bu xing de'
in a house, a family, itz not gonna work when u miss even one member..

my family are not here but still i love home..
if ever there were times i felt awkward when i returned to an empty home coz my housemates are all out.. then it's more of peer pressure rather than need..
itz like 'geez.. why am i the only one not going anywhere' rather than 'geez.. i need to go somewhere'..
so ya.. back to my fren's question: 'has it become our culture to always need to hang out somewhere on friday nite?'
then i'm telling her: 'i'm not sure but if it has, then dun count me in'
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voltes v!!!

well its piece of cake to find this page when u google, but probably u r juz like me.. forgot how much we missed out on that classic anime till someone mentioned it..

so here ya go.. the ultimate voltes v shrine:

here

kudos to the creator!!!! 
and that's my first ever anime.. watched when i was like.. 2 / 3 yrs old?
n attempted to sing the song during my relative's bday n made everybody impressed..
of course they pretended to be.. hey u gotta appreciate a 3 yrs old who had the gut to sing jap song =P
er but some of them did thought that i could speak jap ^^
geez.. i'm so japanese but for the fact that i dun speak jap lol...
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